January 2011
And what scares me even more is that my dad and brother, who haven’t showed emotion the whole time grandmas been living here, they started crying a little while ago. Reality is truly setting in for everyone in my house.
Helpless and scared
Grandma is horrible. I hate to say that, but she can barely move. It took my mom and the aid an hour to get her out of bed and into the shower today. Took another hour to get her out of the shower and back into bed. Everything hurts her. She’s been crying all day and keeps telling my mom she’s scared. She told my mom that she just wants to be with daddy (her husband, who passed away 20...
i'm getting extremely worried
my brother and i one day were talking about how we think my grandma is just holding on so that she can see her son one last time. he’s only been around once to see her, for the year that she’s been living in my house already. she’s been so so sick and has told my mom and i several times that she doesn’t want to do this anymore and that she doesn’t want to wake up...
there’s nothing i love more than laying in your bed, in your arms, holding your hand. laying my head on your chest and talking about stupid nonsense. you always make me smile. just thinking about you makes me smile. i just wish that something more could actually happen between us but i know it never can.
