February 2011
up in the sky, deep in the ocean
this last week has been hell for me. i’m so emotionally exhausted and it feels like my family can never catch a break.
tuesday night, my father called me telling me my grandma was quickly deteriorating and that it would be either that night or wednesday that she would pass. i decided that before the snow storm hit the area i would go home and see her. i left school around 1030pm and arrived...
January 2011
funeral is in a little less than 12 hours
brb while i start to fall apart already. it’s almost 2am and my body is aching. i’m exhausted, in zombie mode, but have so much shit on my mind and to get done before tomorrow. when i stand up, i literally feel like i’m going to fall down, my whole body is shaky and weird. i’m trying to prepare myself for what’s to come tomorrow but i can’t do it. no matter how...
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2011-1-23) →
Hilary Duff (4)
Something Corporate (4)
Anberlin (4)
Tell Me Tell You (3)
Maroon 5 (3)
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Rest in peace grandma
I love you more. You will always and forever be my hero
zumba was great
but right before i got in the shower, I noticed that my dad was calling me and my stomach dropped. i already spoke to my parents today and knew that it could be nothing but bad news he was calling me with. i called him back and found out my grandma came down with pneumonia this morning and is getting worse by the second. he told me that she’ll be gone either tonight or tomorrow. that phone...
time to get mah drunk on. party hard \m/
two days in and i am so loving being back at UNH. i never thought i would actually say that, but i really am. i have amazing friends here and it just feels awesome being back. i’m so content with life right now :)
Valentine's Day is coming up...
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i’m so scared i’m going to die on my way to the gyno. it’s raining ice. my driveway is a sheet of ice but i have to go. fuck my life.
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why did i send you that message?
i know you’re never going to answer me. you threw me out of your life. you could care less about me. but i had an adorable dream about you and i last night and ever since then, you’re all i think about. i wish our friendship never got fucked up. i wish you would give me a chance to talk to you so maybe we could work things out. i miss you more than you could ever imagine. i’m so...
Reblog if you wish cancer didn't exist.
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i feel like i was beat in my sleep
for the past two nights, the smoke detector outside my room has been beeping with this high pitched, annoying, beep. two nights ago i slept in my room and woke up at least 6 times throughout the night to the fucking thing beeping. i had the hardest time falling back to sleep each time i woke up because i can’t fall asleep if there’s noise. i can’t fall asleep or stay asleep if...
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2011-1-9) →
Anberlin (33)
Valencia (3)
And Then There Were None (1)
And Then I Said… (1)
Andrew Landon (1)
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Planning
She’s planning her funeral. I’m sitting with her in the nursing home right now with my mom, aunt and cousin and she’s literally planning everything out, in tears. She’s telling us what to get, asking if we talked to the temple yet and when the date is. I can’t do this. My aunt told my cousin and I we have to tell her it’s okay and that we’ll be okay but I...
